1. THE RETURN

A dreary winter's night
Rain dismally falls
Its maddening river pounds against
The outside wall
The freezing winds are company
With their nightmare melody
While here in my laboratory
My work is complete
My hands are numb with cold
My body is weak
But months of toil and love for her
Kept driving me

Beyond the windowpane
There lies a world
Which lost forever the
Most beautiful girl

Madness and obsession
The weight of despair
Just the beauty of the dream
Has kept me from death
I need her back so much
I long for those times
But I will grieve no more
I'll give her life
Raise up your pretty head
Open your eyes
Speak to me sweet angel
Please come alive
Please come alive!

And then her eyes are filled with light
With precious care
I run my fingers through her auburn hair
Remember me, speak my name
Do you feel my cold hand touch your face?
Please feel your love for me again
Love me again!

In the dimming light
Her arms around me
Fighting for a breath
As emotion drowns me
Wonder, love and fear
They fill me
As she whispers in my ear
"Please kill me!"


2. THE FACE THAT NEVER DIES

When I am alone the anguish begins
Opening scars that never heal
Torturing myself with visions of you
And wishing that I could be there
People have told me it's time to move on
How can I live on when I still feel you
Doorways kept calling for me to be free
But I choose to follow my heart

I try to find refuge in my ancient dreams
I clutch them yet know they cannot be real
Living on memories and hopeless ideals
Stuck in the web of my past
And though I feel that this is wrong
I'm watching the world move sadly by
And thought I'd like to move along
I don't wanna live the lie

If somehow you ever changed the way
You were feeling
You were feeling
Could I take it?

Your flame still flickers in the dark of life


3. SOMETHING HURTS

I think about
My dreams destroying me
The pain that still will come
And all that will not be
And I think about
The past more and more
Regretting words I said
Wishing I said more
As I search for these words
I'm exhuming all the pain
I'm trying to explain
I'm trying to explain!


4. HOW CAN IT HAPPEN?

I just can't let it happen
I can't let it fall away
But my heart keeps on saying
That there just isn't any way
Apprehension overshadows
Hope of my sole desire
I look at you and ask myself
"How can you feel the same as I?"

One day it will be too late forever
As I leave each day behind
I'm haunted by words unspoken
I've so much to give, more than you'll ever find
I have to find within myself
Courage to let you know
As I dream of all that could happen
I let depression take control
I love you


5. THE STRENGTH TO DREAM

Lately I feel that I'm going under
Sometimes I don't wanna see tomorrow
All I need is to hold the dream
Just to touch the dream
Can it ever happen?
Oh, your true sincerity
Your kindness means so much to me
But sometimes it feels like nothing is real
Except this pain and dark uncertainty

Lately I've been feeling more like giving it all away
There's been a black cloud over me
And now I feel the rain
My dreams never seem to leave me to the open road
And cracks have slowly begun to show
In the bridge from here to my only goal

In the ebb of my mind I try
To climb the tower of strength
What can fill this cold empty void
Of what I fear will never be
I find that I follow
Pathways that lead me nowhere

The truth is I am chained to my ideals
And I can't change it
But something in me yearns to win
I know real love is there to find us
If I ever stop believing
I'll always find the strength to dream
But for now depression smiles down upon me
Oh, what I would give to know you.