1. RED CITY

Until the pages of this book are filled with emptiness
I'm still suspended by a thread
Expecting nothing less
I feel my kindred little ways
I know how my story ends

Like me...
It's not your gift to choose
I know you're going to lose
Like me...
This futile circumstance
You never had a chance
Like me...

I'm here walking in a city that is red again
I'm here living with the dead again
Knowing why I'm here again

Like me...
Oh, it's not your gift to choose
I know you're going to lose
Like me...
Oh, this futile circumstance
You never had a chance
Like me...

Like me...
Like me...
Like me...

I can stay here forever!
The hell, remember
I see myself with desperation
This silent night of realization

I fall...
I fall...

Like me...
Oh, it's not your gift to choose
I know you're going to lose
Like me...
Oh, this futile circumstance
You never had a chance
Like me...


2. BLACK JOHN

I find myself in wicked crest
I'm such a shitty mess
I'll catch my baited breath and lose my fucking mind
Called before the killer man
You need to understand
Psychopaths and sycophants are not a waste of time!

But all I know
Is heroes come and villains go
Just give the lunatic a chance
And all I know
Is something out is something old
I'll never win, I'm just a man
But I don't care

The deadly frost is in the green
You don't know what I mean
You'll find the Benzedrine can throw you off the edge
Who needs a therapist?
Too bad I'm not convinced
God, I'm sick of this
Just save yourself or I'll be damned

All I know
Is heroes come and villains go
Just give the lunatic a chance
And all I know
Is something out is something old
I'll never win, I'm just a man

The Conflagration isn't yours!
Your bible is a war
Once we've broken through
There's nothing to protect
Futile bullets make you weak-
Your tremors can't compete
The Human's obsolete
Whether you have lived

All I know
Is heroes come and villains go
Just give the lunatic a chance
And all I know
Is something out is something old
I'll never win, I'm just a man

All I know
Is every way you come and go
There's nothing new to understand
All I know
Is nowhere's safe and no one's home
I'll never win, I'm just a man
But I don't care

Black John is always there!


3. SADIST

Withering eyes catch you as you fall
A bitter sigh...
No one knows at all
Let me in...
For one more long disgrace
Just forget...
The same distractions you refuse to face

We both know that it's gone
But what if no one knows...
No one knows to remember why it's wrong?
This is all the pain a man can take
This is how a broken heart still breaks

I don't need much to show you
Only enough to control you
Bury your head inside this
And gather the darkness that finds it

I think I'll die if you deny me
Swallowed alive in eternity
Give me a way to be the agony
That knew you all along

Push it down and hide me from this waste
Don't hold back...
I'd kill to take your place
Tell me a lie...
Tell me you don't care
Just forget...
A storm is coming
Just forget your skin

We both know this ends
But what if no one knows...
No one knows how to kill us in the end?
This is all you need for who you are
This is how a good man goes too far...

I don't need much to show you
Only enough to control you
Bury your head inside this
And gather the darkness that finds it

I think I'll die if you deny me
Swallowed alive in eternity
Give me a way to be the agony
That knew you all along

This is all the pain a man can take!
This is how the blackest circle breaks

I don't need much to show you
Only enough to control you
Bury your head inside this
And gather the darkness that finds it

I think I'll die if you deny me
Swallowed alive in eternity
Give me a way to be the agony
That knew you all along

I knew you all along!
I knew you all along!


4. PECKINPAH

So I'm back in the corner-
Looking at either side again
There's a terrible knowledge-
That comes from being arrogant
Don't hold your breath, just keep whats left-
You'll be justified
Reservations and revelations
Prepare to crucify!

I'm living incomplete!
I'm dying for release!
Killing extra time!
Bored of different minds!
I will decide! (Decide!)

I'm seeing what the problem is
I've got no faith left anymore
I don't know how I got here
But I'm locking every door-
So I can never leave!

Oh the seminal cowmen
Friends that show his hand again
I can see the all the exits but-
I'm missing what is evidence
Don't save the best, just leave the rest
You'll be vilified
Lamentations and calculations
I've got nothing left to hide

So now I'm living incomplete!
I'm dying for release!
Killing extra time!
Bored of different minds!
I will decide! (Decide!)

I'm seeing what the problem is
I've got no faith left anymore
I don't know how I got here
But I'm locking every door-
So I can never leave!

I'm seeing what the problem is
I've got no faith left anymore
I don't know how I got here
But I'm locking every door-
I can be a better artifact
Or I can be a better king
I should know what I'm made of
But I'm starting to believe
That I can never leave


5. STALEMATE

If I fail, if I fall...
If I can't be free, then I never was at all
The more I fight, I stay the same...

Where do I go, and what do I do?
I'll never know if I never get through
The more I fight, I stay... THE SAME!

Got a lot, a lot of excuses
Nothing better than a homemade lie
New rules and old confusion
The ones you just despise

Out of my way, out of my reach
Out of your dream, if you still can't sleep
My mind is a terrible gift
And I'd rather be numb than feel this way

Come home with the medal, it's broken
Another fake that's another mistake
Just once, when the moment is golden
I will leave this clean

If I fail, if I fall...
If I can't be free, then I never was at all
The more I fight, I stay the same...

Where do I go, and what do I do?
I'll never know if I never get through
The more I fight, I stay the same...

Half my time and one protection
This is better than a bigger stand
New shoes in old directions
The epitaph of man

Killing my name, killing my past
Nothing's left when nothing lasts
My life is a terrible waste
And I'm going down fast

If I fail, if I fall...
If I can't be free, then I never was at all
The more I fight, I stay the same...

Where do I go, and what do I do?
I'll never know if I never get through
The more I fight, I stay the same...

Oh, don't be so distracted
I can tell you where the story ends...
New sins and old abuses
And no one wins again...

This is my chance, this is my curse
We all know it'll only get worse
My hell is a terrible case
But I'll give you all hell first!

If I fail, if I fall...
If I can't be free, then I never was at all
The more I fight, I stay the same...

Where do I go, and what do I do?
I'll never know if I never get through
The more I fight, I stay the same...

Where do I go, and what do I do?
The very thought scares the hell out of you
The more I fight, I stay the same...

If I fail, if I fall...
If I know if I care at all
The more I fight, I stay the same...


6. GRAVESCEND

Holding the "code" on top
Waiting for light and sound to stop
Deeper and deeper, today
Further and further, I fade away

Let me ignore the cost
Special effects for common loss
I'm ready for numb...
I'm ready for numb...

If the demons take me...
I just wanna be dead for good!
When the spirit meets me...
I will die like a good man should!

I was only eighteen when I finally let go...
Picking at the dead like a remnant on the road
I will never understand if I never get told...
Living in the dark like a remnant on the road

Digging with pale, white hands
Keeping the calm and tasting sand
Doing a favor, today
Telling a friend to stay away

I can't afford the cost
I don't care for what I've lost
I'm ready for numb...
I'm ready for numb...

And if the angels take me...
They're gonna need extra time
When the spirit mocks me...
I'll know I'll only take what's mine

I was only twenty-five when I finally went home
Looking for a ride like a murder on the road

I will only understand when you leave me alone
Dying in the dark like a murder on the road
Like a murder on the road...

You're never too young to remember you're old
Looking for a deal like the devil on the road

I will only understand when I finally get told
Waiting for the dark like the devil on the road

Like the devil on the road...
Like the devil on the road...
Like the devil on the road...


7. '82

Oh long ago
There was a dead rat caught in a Chinese trap
And all I had to show
Where the ashes of a life that had no chance
It wasn't right, but all I could do
Was be another number that caught in the fuse
And what a lie, with nothing to lose
Something happened in nineteen-eighty-two!

Are you the enemy?
Let me show you what you did to me

Once I get away from here
I know its gonna be my time
I've seen to much to keep me here
I don't want yours I just want mine

I'm never alone-
I'm always in the middle talking to myself
And all I want to know
Am I really on the road, I just can't tell
It isn't right
But all I can do is take it to a level where I can't refuse
Its a lie-
I need you to see
Let me show you what you did to me

Once I get away from here
I know its gonna be my time
I've seen to much to keep me here
I don't want yours I just want mine
Before I get away from here
I think I better set you straight
I know my place is miles from here
You'll never understand to make my fate

Deep down there's a Devil inside
He can make you give up everything
Settle if you want to die
Or you can live for a world that must be free

Oh once I get away from here
I know its gonna be my time
I've seen too much to keep me here
I don't want yours, I just want mine
Before I get away from here
I think I better set you straight
I know my place is miles from here
You'll never understand to make my fate
Once I get away from here
Oh once I get away from here-
I know its gonna be my time!


8. THE UNCANNY VALLEY

Careful, the heathen wants to play...
Do you wanna be saved?
Someone doesn't feel himself today...
What a way to behave

When does your karma start to disarm your explosive demeanor?
It's not a reason to seethe
I see you showing your teeth
These are the valleys of greed

I can't believe my eyes
There's a fire across my skies
There's only so much left
But what does it matter
Everything is shut off

Careful, the medicine's designed to stain
So we can see your veins
Rose Americana pennies will rain
In the face of the sane

Better depression builds hungry legends
I always imagined the end was here in our sights
I never said it was right
This is the battle we fight

Oh, I can't believe my eyes
There's a fire across my skies
There's only so much left
But what does it matter
Everything is shut off

Oh, I can't believe my eyes
There's a fire across my skies
There's only so much left
But what does it matter
Everything is shut off


9. BLUE SMOKE

I sell...
I shape this simple future-
Into something that resembles my own life...

I've killed...
A thousand better choices-
I've deceived a generation with my lies

I'm still...
A bastard in a denizen
He marks them til I'm born again
I'm complicated fiction with no time

I'm here...
I'm...


10. DO ME A FAVOR

I am an anti everything man
A scab on the lips of the Lord
My caustic dismissal
Is all I need to get you
To fall on your sword

It's easy to live fast
It's harder to live
I woke up today with a gun
Ignoring your history
Is killing your past
You might run forever
If death never lasts

So do me a favor
Your behavior
Is just a reason why
There is no savior
When you're wasted
Let's face it
There's a side of you that
Knows you're a failure
Lives for the danger
Feels like an enemy but looks like a stranger

The bell has rung on the titans
Everybody give us some room
Your so called set of fake morals
I can't tell the difference
Is that an excuse?

The matter at hand
Is a matter of time
A sad little kid with broken toys
Your dogmatic license
Has kept you inside

What will you do?
When you're burning alive?

So do me a favor
Your behavior
Is just a reason why
There is no savior
When you're wasted
Let's face it
There's a side of you that
Knows you're a failure
Lives for the danger
Feels like an enemy but looks like a stranger

So do me a favor
Your behavior
Is just a reason why
There is no savior
When you're wasted
Let's face it
There's a side of you that
Knows you're a failure
Lives for the danger
Feels like an enemy but looks like a stranger

I don't mind my old, dead story
And I don't want to lie to you
I know my glory
Will never be the same as truth
By now my only enemy is you

I won't go slowly
I'll leave you behind
Leave you behind
Leave you behind
Leave you behind


11. THE CONFLAGRATION

Every now and then a lifetime
needs a second chance
to find another one...like you.
Don't forget your better reasons,
All your silly risks will bring you down.
Oh, several years of bitter Mondays,
Take a heavy toll then you realize...it's you,
Until you make this easy harder,
no one else will care, if you're around.

If you leave, your love will know tomorrow,
Every day is just a road to sorrow.
You should know, what they want, they get,
If it's you, they won't let you forget.

Oh, so much for channeled lions gathering the sheep,
All I wanted was something safe.
Show me your ungreatful tolerance,
I'll point out the mirror, point to you.
Oh, this is where forever gets us,
Immortal wishes and oblivion,
I can't stay.
I don't need the conflagration,
I don't need the hate,
And I don't need you!

But if you leave, your life will know tomorrow,
Every day is just a road to sorrow.
And you should know, what they want, they get,
If it's you, they won't let you forget.

So if you leave, our life will know tomorrow,
Every day is just a road to sorrow.
You should know, what they want, they get,
And if it's you, they won't let you forget.

Oooh, I'm on my own,
I'm on my own.


12. THE HOUSE OF GOLD AND BONES

Oh this is what its coming to-
Another water loo
You wanna put me underground-
'Cus I'm overused
Giving up that your pulling me down
I will make you come unglued

You can cover me in sovilties
What an apogee
I can fake it 'cus you'll never be real to me
I'm innocent!
I know I'm nearly in
But if I can't understand I will never win!

The more I know my mind
The more I leave you all behind
Living in the shadow of doubt
I'll never obey, but I'll always decide

Oh my heart survived
I gotta do it alone
I will burn alive in the House of Gold and Bones

Oh old day epitome
Of all the shit in me
And I'm surrounded by the people I will never be
Either way I've got nothing to prove-
To a song of a bitch like you
Well this is hell and I wanted it
But I'm an idiot-
Its a feat 'cus I know I'm illegitimate

Kill it!
I wanna see it!
I wanna feel it!
I will be here forever!

The more I know my mind
The more I leave you all behind
Living in the shadow of doubt
I'll never obey, and I'll always decide

Oh my heart survived
I gotta do it alone
I will burn alive in the House of Gold and Bones

The more I know my mind
The more I leave this world behind
Living in the shadow of doubt
I'm already gone, I'm already alive

Oh my heart survived
I gotta do it alone
I will burn alive in the House of Gold and Bones

Oh my heart survived
I gotta do it alone
I will burn alive in the House of Gold and Bones
In the House of Gold and Bones
In the House of Gold and Bones!


13. SHINE (ROUGH DEMO)

I know I have peculiar ways
I know I seem to hard to master
Give me more then I can take
I know the way, as long as I'm going alone

No one takes my breath away like you
And I will never change, I know my strength but...
I can not get you off my mind!
And under darkness you still shine
But what more the words can see
And lies reveal when shadows fade
And I won't let you be alone
Stay!

Burn away the past mistakes
Take a chance on my surrender
All I want is your release
I know the way, as long as I'm going alone

No one takes my breath away like you
And I will never change, I know my strength but...
I can not get you off my mind!
And under darkness you still shine
But what more the words can see
And lies reveal when shadows fade
And I won't let you be alone
Stay!

Huh!

What?

Hey!

I can not get you off my mind
When under darkness, you still shine
But what more the words can see
Your lies reveal when shadows fade
And I won't let you be alone
Stay!

Hey yeah!
Hey yeah!
Shadowing!
Shadowing!