DISORDERS OF FATE

This air I was breathing
This sun I was bathing
The shadows I forgot
The illusions I've lost

I'm alone in my mind
Something's hurting my pride
I'm afraid of today
I feel out of my way

I'm walking between two eternities
I'm waiting for my time
Falling deep into memories
I'm waiting for my time

My life could be so bright
But from dawn to twilight
Hope became a shadow
Do I have nowhere to go?

I thought it could be easy
But everything turned sleezy
Thought it could be happiness
I crawl within loneliness

I'm walking between two eternities
I'm looking for my side
Falling deep into memories
I'm looking for my side.

I can still feel the caress of the past
The bliss of innocence
Everyday I live could be the last
Would all really have a sense

I can hear the voices spelling my dreams
Illusions I can't stand anymore
Imagination flied to foreign realms
Where my soul is stronger

Faith, but insanity
In my quest of identity
Obscene and maybe vane
Is my trial of pain

The enemy's too strong
My desires may be wrong
I wish it was yesterday
And I took the other way

I'm walking between two eternities
I'm looking for my side
Falling deep into memories
I'm looking for my side


SUFFOCATION

How not see and feel anymore
All these things wich draw me into pain.
Need to erase the page which feeds my despair
And then, start again to forget

I'm afraid of my death, my love, my hate,
I'm afraid of my heart, my words, my dreams.
I'm no longer living, in autodestruction phase,
I have to go through as my illness is a dead end.

But sufferings kill me,
Get me out of this world,
Get me out of this awful abyss,
Suffocation! Help me!

What's this shadow wich invades my soul
My life is not so easy as drakness creeps in
Never give me up to this evil disease
And believe forever as long as hope is.

Carpe diem must be my emblem
Listening to my hart, in my words, in my dreams,
Standing up, never feel remorse,
Staying impartial, close to the truth


SILENCE OF CHAOS

Fear ! Is running through my veins
Is growing in my mind
And I see the world in pain

Hate ! Is knocking at my door
So harmless and so kind
Always tempting me more

Dread ! Within my family
In the cries of the world
Both far and close to me

Night ! Is blowing out the light
Carrying in its whirl
All the hopes that we blight

I wish I was a child
Tonight mankind is turning wild
I close my tired eyes
But I still see that world that slowly dies

Blind ! Surrounded by shadows
Wandering in silence
Behind those timeless walls

Deep ! ‘s the hole we're falling in
Dancing a Devil's dance
Now chaos can begin

Vane ! Our hopes are of no use
Our dreams have gone insane
Corrupted by misuse

Dark ! No mercy for our soul
No prayer for the slain
Just the silence so foul

I wish I was a child
Tonight mankind is turning wild
I close my tired eyes
But I still see that world that slowly dies

Violence and hatred everywhere
We feel them crawling around
Blackening our lives with despair
Creeping slowly on the ground
We became pipers of our fate
Tonight the show is evidence
We fear this phantom we create
Prisoners of the dance

Hear ! The silence of the crowd
The illusions perished
With the whispers of the clouds

Feel ! The shiver on your skin
Forgiveness has vanished
We're alone with our sin.

I wish I heard some voices
Through the silence of our choices
I'm watching the horizon
And I see nothing but a gloomy prison


CASSANDRA'S NIGHTMARE

I feel a shiver on my skin
A strange fever inside of me
I don't know if I am dreaming
Or if I'm just going crazy

Out of consciousness
Carried away by my ill mind
Enduring the trance
Forgetting all honour and pride

All that I can do will be vane
I can hear the scorn in your words
I know your mistrust is my pain
I know your mistrust is my curse

I can hardly breathe, I'm leaving
The more I see, the more I get weak
Reality is vanishing
And suddenly I feel alive and sick

I'm so exhausted
Of wandering through time and space
More and more frustrated
To live with things I cannot face

All that I can do will be vane
I can hear the scorn in your words
I know your mistrust is my pain
I know your mistrust is my curse


THE HORIZON

I close the eyes and listen to the wind
A wind of freedom that fills the sails
And at the sunrise, the quest will begin
To the promised land, I'll sail with my friends

I hear the call of the open sea
The horizon has hypnotized me

The ocean's gleaming, mirror of the stars
Kingdom of my dreams, prison of my mind
Few last tears wet my feverish eyes
I must forget all I will leave behind

I hear the call of the open sea
The horizon has hypnotized me


FACING THE ELEMENTS

Trapped in the middle of nowhere
There is no escape for our souls
We are surrounded by shadows
And furious water, everywhere

Abandoned in a moonless night
Tirelessly lashed by wind and rain
Over a dark ocean of pain
Fighting to live, living to fight

And emerging from the abyss
Guided by Poseidon's hands
We saw waves running by thousands
Creatures hungry for our bodies

Eyes wide open, standing on the neck
Proud sailors resigned but still brave
We prayed our god to bless our grave
And disappeared through the shipwreck


NARCOSIS (INSTRUMENTALE)


FILLING THE VOID WITH SILENCE

There's no hope anymore in his vanishing mind
There's no strength in his soul become blind
I think it's time for me to hear
All those poor whispers that I fear

There's no pride anymore in his desperate eye
He bearly feels the light that comes to kiss goodbye
I think it's time for me to go
To those dark countries of my woe.

His face is veiled by pain, he becomes a shadow
His voice, whispering from nowhere, says he must go
His soul just needs some rest in the timeless kingdom
I am the killing hand to whom he reclaims freedom

He wants to disappear, quietly in the night
He wants to close his eyes, and reborn in the light
I think it's time for me to take his hand
I think it's time for me to face the end

Now he lies silently in his eternal dreams
Carried out of my life by invisible streams
I think it's time for me to cry
To live without him til I die

His face was veiled by pain, he became a shadow
His voice, whispering from nowhere, said he had to go
His soul needed some rest in the timeless kingdom
I was the killing hand who gave him freedom

Oh what have I done ?
Am I such a monster ?
Now, now that he's gone,
I fear their anger

Shame on you, you fool !
Oh what have I done ?
You've broken the Rule !
But he had chosen

I'm afraid of me, I must fill the void
I mustn't look behind
I'm afraid of me, I must fill the void
With the silence so blind
With the silence so kind
With the silence so still
With the silence so deep

Oh what have I done ?
I'm not a monster ?
I'm relieved he's gone,
I can face their anger

I don't mind their shame
I know it was fair
I'm the one they blame
But I just heard his prayer

I can live again, I have filled the void
I still don't look behind
I can live again, I have filled the void
The silence kept me alive
I must... fill the silence with life
I must... fill the silence with life
I must... fill the silence with life


BACK TO THE ROOTS

I wish it never happened, I wish
It was more simple for me to exist

I look forward and I see anguish
I look behind when I need to resist

I must forget now I must forgive
I must leave the past though I learn from it

Cause time is not what illusions give
It seems we can go but there's no exit

All that I want is peace of mind
Back to the roots
And I will seek until I find
Back to the roots

I have regrets and pain, and I know
The answer lies beyond my memories

I'm not gonna think, I'm gonna go
I'm gonna live again through all these changes

I'm not looking for a paradise
But I'm sick of all those vane promises

I want to stay and open my eyes
And forget the price of our vanities

All that I want is peace of mind
Back to the roots
And I will seek until I find
Back to the roots

I wish it never happened, I wish
We shouldn't have to face our regrets

I look forward and I feel selfish
I look behind to go out of these nets

Time has come to lose our illusions
And time has come to learn humility

I will just take some wise decisions
And I'll stop waiting in uncertainty

Now I feel peaceful and relieved
Back to the roots
I trust what I always believed in
Back to the roots


NEVER ENDING DREAM - PART I

Putting everything out of my mind
I'm falling into a deep sleep
As I forget my unconscious side
Arms forwards, I'm falling

I guess it is, I know it is
The product of my imagination
And perhaps new realities
Another world of my perception

This dream I once saw, this world
I could imagine myself in
Nothing could have blackened
The future of my memories

I could never have thought
Before what's happening
This dream within my soul
Could be so exciting

Immerging in my thought
I'm waiting for a stream
That'll bring me where I'll be shown
What's beyond that never-ending dream

How many different times
Did I actually feel
In my soul, in my mind
This sensation growing ?

Ignorant of this travel
That brings us with passion
To this amazing wonderland
Of timeless emotions

But I keep on looking for what follows
For what's occurring in my head
I know it must go the way it goes
I must let it be and run ahead

Here it is ! Here I am !
I can feel it ! I can see it !
One more time, in this next world
I'm afraid of my awakening
Because all I'll have been dreaming of
Will be forgotten as time goes by

Immerging in my thought
I'm waiting for a stream
That'll bring me where I'll be shown
What's beyond that never-ending dream

Bearly awake
I don't know exactly where I am
I wonder whether what I saw
Belonged to reality or not

Immerging in my thought
I'm waiting for a stream
That'll bring me where I'll be shown
What's beyond that never-ending dream