1. FOREVER OUTSIDER

Life crossed the water
While I became the night

We ride in silence
Through the night
We are wildfire
We are the night

What it all comes down to
Was that I never felt like one of you
Light changed and so did my soul
I went from broken to whole
Still knowing that I’d always be
Forever outsider

Always felt like an orphan of shadows
Baptized at night
Always felt like a stranger to mankind
I lied across all borders to justify life
A born denier because life is a lie

What it all comes down to
Was that I never felt like one of you
Light changed and so did my soul
I went from broken to whole
Still knowing that I’d always be
Forever outsider

We crossed the main road
Through the fire
Always defied
Because life is a lie

What it all comes down to
Was that I never felt like one of you
Light changed and so did my soul
I went from broken to whole
Still knowing that I’d always be
Forever outsider


2. WHERE AUGUST MOURNS

Winter came
From cold to frozen
Disguised in white
The Arctic Ocean
Along came night
Confined and closing
Too long to touch
And opposed to opening

It came from nothingness
I never got a chance to flee
Never saw it coming
And just needed it to leave me be
I was safe in freedom
From safe to all alone
Like life had planned to desert me
Since day one

If I’m just aching this can’t go on
I came from chasing dreams to feel alone
There must be changes, miss to feel strong
I really need life to touch me

I came too far for my long lost heart
It got too dark
It went too far
Price for truth
Were sacrifices I needed to do
A heartfelt leave
It offered peace

If I’m just aching this can’t go on
I came from chasing dreams to feel alone
There must be changes, miss to feel strong
I really need life to touch me
There must be reasons I’m on my own
I really need life to find me
There must be changes, miss to feel strong
I really need life to touch me

It came from nothingness
I never got a chance to flee
Never saw it coming
And just needed it to leave me be
Need freedom, won’t be this alone
Like life had planned to desert me
Since day one

If I’m just aching this can’t go on
I went from chasing dreams to all alone
A change of season where August mourn
I really need life to touch me

If I’m just aching
I came from chasing dreams to feel alone
There must be changes, miss to feel strong
I really need life to touch me
There must be reasons I’m on my own
I really need life to find me
There must be changes, miss to feel strong
I really need life to touch me


3. STORIES

I am caught in the riddle
I feel stuck in here
I’m lost in the middle
Between the lines

I need escaping
Maybe just for a little
Because I’m right in the middle

Of these new winds
And new waves
This storm gives
And this storm takes
So if I last through the night
And I’m here tomorrow
I might survive
I might survive

One after one
We run blind
Through the dark
Just to write ourselves
New stories
Where we’re happy
When we cry
To show to all
We’re too proud to fall
Can’t we write ourselves
New stories
Where we lie?
Where we lie?
Where we lie?

I have fought every battle
My fields of blood on the inside
Unarmed but I fly through the night
And now I have to take sides

I need escaping
Oh, maybe just for a little
Because I am right in the middle
(Middle, middle of these)

Newborn ways
Where the lives won’t change
And the many lives
That the storm takes

One after one
We run blind
Through the dark
Just to write ourselves
New stories
Where we’re happy
When we cry
To show to all
We’re too proud to fall
Can’t we write ourselves
New stories
Where we lie?
Where we lie?
We lie

These new waves
Keep me fighting this battle
(New ways)
Where I’m trying not to drown
Because I’m right in the middle

(Of these new ways)
You know what I’ve been through
(New ways)
And I never thought
You’d watch us drown
In our quicksand
(New ways)
In this quicksand

One after one
We run
We’re running blind
Through darkness
We are our own saviors
Deceivers
We rise, we fall
To be the greatest of all
‘Cause the writing
Of new stories
Has begun
Has begun
Has begun


4. A DANDELION CIPHER

Sometimes I wonder
If I’m in this world on my own
If I will ever know
Your secret to wonders

Because I’m
I’m out here
I’m out in the cold
Outside all the doors
You once closed
Feels like I’ve been here forever

Why should I keep on striving
If you will never let me in?
Why should I keep on trying when
I’ll just end up back where I started?
No gold at the end of the rainbow
And no stars to guide my way
And now I walk here alone
Because we’re walking in circles

I grew
Where nothing could grow
I grew in concrete
In ashes, through cold
A dandelion cipher

I locked all the doors
I could close
Let illusions
Keep out the cold
I stayed here forever

Why should I keep on striving
If you will never let me in?
Why should I keep on trying when
I’ll just end up back where I started?
No gold at the end of the rainbow
And no stars to guide my way
And now I walk here alone
Because we’re walking in circles

Why should I keep on striving
If you will never let me in?
Why should I keep on trying when
I’ll just end up back where I started?
No gold at the end of the rainbow
No stars to light my way
I walk here alone
Because I’m walking in circles


5. THE BEHOLDER

Sun sets the light’s in slow decay
A search that never stop but change
And all I ever had has now been washed away
And even though I know my tide is coming
I feel a need to stay right here

Sun sets the light’s in slow decay
I drown and now I drift away
I’m at the river bottom
Let the river flow
Because I

Never
Never felt I found my way
I feel like the…
Like the inside’s my enemy
Never
Never felt I found my way out
Never felt I found the way out

Run all you can to prevent that your heaven’s falling
And I can’t save your soul
Your drowning and you drift away
I feel my faithlessness has overthrown me
Let river life run through your darkest days
I’m at the river bottom
So let the river flow

Never
I never felt I found my way
I feel like the…
Like the inside’s my enemy
Never
Never felt I found my way out

Listen child you’ll grow older
You will see and become a beholder

'Cause I have tried my hardest
And can’t believe I don’t know
Because I know all the hurting
I / You’ll always faced this alone

There is a path to be found and
You’ve got to reach there on your own
So many worlds to discover
So many more than you’ll know
You’ll finally leave this hurting
To never more feel alone (I feel alone)
And stand on top of all burdens
A brand new world to know
And soon you’re so much wiser and then you’re free
To become
A beholder

Never
I never felt I found my way
I feel like the…
Like the inside’s my enemy
Never
Never felt I found my way out


6. IN THE ABSENCE OF SUN

Sun, where’s the sun?
Why is it hiding for some?
Sun, where’s the sun?
The absence of light
Seems like abstinence

My sense of safety’s undone
Got lost in winds too young
Tore to sea unnoticed
But forever present
In my essence
Forever

Sense of salt forever
Deeply carved into my essence
Forever present
There was a subtle call
But it might have been too silent

The need to feel desired
It turned to inside blame
And when the calls
Were left unanswered
My virtue fell in shame
And I became a shadow
And waited for the sun
A non-believer

Drifting further and further
I was soon out of sight
Leaving me to a fate
I was shaped by the shadows
In the absence of sun
Never leaving the haze

And if you never walked
Among shadows
Or never were held
In the arms of solitude
Then you never felt
How cold it is
In the absence of sun
In the absence of sun
In the absence of sun

Sun, where’s the sun?
Why is it hiding for some?
Sun, where’s the sun?
The lack of light
Is my abstinence

And my sense of safety’s undone
Got lost in winds
When I was young
Tore to sea unnoticed
But forever present
In my essence
Forever

Drifting further and further
I was soon out of sight
Leaving me to a fate
I was shaped by the shadows
In the absence of sun
Never leaving the haze

And if you never walked
Among shadows
Or never were held
In the arms of solitude
Then you never felt
How cold it is
In the absence of sun
The absence of sun
The absence of sun


7. ETERNAL NOCTURNAL

Hand in hand with the hopeless
I see you drowning in the harbor of the soulless
Your mind is like wild horses
Stampede it rages you’re distorted

And we were watching from afar
And we were hiding in our own dark
Hoping we would be brave enough for you

I’ll be your winds when you need a storm
Your sense of hope when you fall
I’ll be your shelter when you need a home
I’ll be your reasons to all
And when you’re feeling down and low
I’ll be your eyes in the dark
And I’ll be there when your time will come
Eternal Nocturnal

What were your reasons for fading?
What were your reasons for straying?
Knew your thoughts were just like wild horses
Explodes and rages you’re distorted

I’ll be your winds when you need a storm
Your sense of hope when you fall
I’ll be your shelter when you need a home
I’ll be your reasons to all
And when you’re feeling down and low
I’ll be your eyes in the dark
And I’ll be there when your time will come
Eternal Nocturnal

And if you find yourself on the outside
You never need to feel that you’re all alone
Because I’ll be there in your times of twilight
Forever nocturnal
I’ll be your eyes in the dark

I’ll be your winds when you need a storm
Your sense of hope when you fall
I’ll be your shelter when you need a home
I’ll be your reason to all
And when you’re feeling down and low
I’ll be your eyes in the dark
And I’ll be there when your time will come
Eternal Nocturnal


8. ESCAPE OF THE PHOENIX

On a day when the world
Was not awake
I crossed the river
And the waters of oblivion
This day all heaven’s fell
I want to fly, not resurrect

Escape
And land in the celestial
Nightfall on my immortal soul
I’m leaving for a new day
As my ashes fall in the meridian

The wings of wonder
A new life arising
Sacrificial arson
From fire to carbon
The ashes crowning
A call to weakness
Escape of the phoenix

On this day the world
Was not awake
And I stood and had to watch
While the heaven’s wept
Its rivers
Tried to fly, not resurrect

Threw myself
On the stake to burn
And all the lives
Where I lived and learned
Nothing’s sacred in halos
I’ll give this crown
To the one who follows

The wings of wonder
A new life arising
Sacrificial arson
From fire to carbon
The ashes crowning
A call to weakness
Escape of the phoenix

From ashes to nothing
Could heaven welcome a traitor?
We are the sacred ashes
Of her honor
I’m reaching, I’m stretching
To not fall from grace into oblivion
The calling for freedom
Escape of the phoenix

The wings of wonder
A new life arising
Sacrificial arson
From fire to carbon
The ashes crowning
A call to weakness
Escape of the phoenix

The wings of wonder
A new life arising
Sacrificial arson
From fire to carbon
The ashes crowning
A call to weakness
Escape of the phoenix


9. YOU FROM YOU

I fought since my youth
I scraped the pain away
I’ve come to a conclusion
That there are no words to say
Even though I’ve done all I could
There are so many things I can’t do
And one is to save you from you

I offer me
And all that’s true
My peace within
Might guide you through
Your darkest times
And your loneliest days
But I can’t save you
I can’t save you from you

Because you didn’t climb at all
And I didn’t want to fall
But I never needed more
Than your heart, that was all
You never gave it up
And I didn’t want to fight
In a war on the inside

So, I offered me
And I saw it through
My peace within
I gave it all to you
And in your darkest times
Through your glorious days
I gave it all to you
But I can’t save you from you

Because you didn’t climb at all
And I didn’t want to fall
But I never needed more
Than your heart, that was all
You never gave it up
And I didn’t want to fight
In a war on the inside

I’m leaving you
I’m leaving you
From the dead lights
Through the dark nights
And the insights
I cannot save you from you
Oh-oh-ho

Because you didn’t climb at all
And I didn’t want to fall
But I never needed more
Than your heart, that was all
I had to give you up
I didn’t last the fight
Because I knew
I couldn’t save you from you


10. LEADEN SAINTS

Got the world
On my shoulders
Feel its weight
To the bone

Got the world
On these shoulders
My within
Is bare to the soul

We are dead
Senses fade
Never blamed it on the layout
To be leaden saints
We have strayed
To chaos
Never knew there was a dark way in
To be heaven sent

Take this weight from my shoulders
I can’t hold it much longer
If you could see what I see
Then maybe (maybe)
You would understand

Just a simple beholder
I just wish you were older
If you’d feel what I feel
Then maybe (maybe)
You would lend a helping hand

But I’m on my own
And I climb alone

We are dead
Senses fade
Never blamed it on the layout
To be leaden saints
We have strayed
To chaos
Never knew there was a dark way in
To be heaven sent

Got the world
On my shoulders
Feel its weight
To the bones
How do I do this alone?

We are dead
Senses fade
Never blamed it on the layout
To be leaden saints
We have strayed
To chaos
Never knew there was a dark way in
To be heaven sent

We are dead
Keys and chains
Oh-oh-oh
To be heaven sent
We’re afraid
To repent
Never knew there was a dark way in


11. RUN

I believed that the world
Was not on my side
And if I couldn’t feel it
Was all just lies
Oh-oh, yeah

Had to have all that was true
And all that I knew
Right before my eyes
And I never thought
I could be someone new

But I felt done
I felt life could never change
No, oh, oh-oh, oh-oh
And it was dark
So much darker than today
So, I
So, I

Run
Run
I run
I run
Run
Run
I run
I run

I always felt
I was the loneliest soldier
And I always felt
That I battled alone

If I could just flee
And close my eyes on it all
Then tomorrow would come
And it would be gone
So that’s why I

(Run)
Run
I run
I run
Run
I run
I run
Run

I wish someone had told me
There is no way to outrun the pain
I wish someone had showed me
That there are some other ways
But maybe I should have known this
Maybe I’m the one to blame
Maybe I was too convinced

But I was done
I felt life could never change
No, dark
So much darker than today
So, I
So, I

Run
Run
I run
I run
Run
Run
I run
That’s why I run

When I look back I can’t believe
How I thought that I
(Run)
Could shut the door on some things
That I could never hide
(I run)
But I only kept running
And that’s why I run
(I run)
Yeah-yeah

(Run)
Can’t believe I’ve been running
For this long
(I run)
And I thought I could run
Forever more
(I run)
These are the reasons
Why I run


12. THE DARKNESS IN YOU

Of all my wounds there's one I hold
Close to heart never cold
Malice thoughts grows inside
A mind design, a darker kind

I would never waver
I would never fail you ever
Never you

How do I reach the inside of you?
How do I solve the darkness in you?

This is the way to the unknown
A dark design, the design is mine
Can we really hide a secret
Can we really hide at all?
Do we chase within you
Or chase the darkness from you?

I would never waver
I would never fail you ever
Never you

How do I reach the inside of you?
How do I solve the darkness in you?
I'll never waver I'll be through your
Dark times, your cold nights
'Cause I could never fail you
I'll try to chase the darkness from you
Chase the darkness from you

How do I reach the inside of you
How do I solve the darkness in you?